Observations of a Fictional Girl

Hello there my dear readers, Happy belated thanksgiving to you all! I'm not an American and have never lived there but this is one of those holidays that I feel the UK could adopt as the spirit of the occasion (minus the dodgy colonial aspect) is one that is pretty wonderful. The time for community and thankfulness as well as tasty food can get romantacised but the sentiment is one I am very much in the mood for at the moment. Hence today I would like to share some things with you that, in spite of sleep deprivation and headaches as well as a far too long a week, I am thankful for. 1. Friends : I love my friends and it is true that they are the family we choose for ourselves. Their love makes even the baddest of bad days better and I feel so thankful to be surrounded by such wonderful people in my life on all sides of the water. (Wasn't enough room for photos of you all but I loves you all :)) Nicola having some Cider at the Christmas Light Switch on Me and Nic w...

Early Morning Greetings to you my dear readers, It has been a whirlwind week since I last posted here and despite all that has been going on I have some how managed to hand in both of my essays and on Thursday reached some degree of freedom. However this has meant that my mind has had far too much time to be distracted by melancholy and dwell on recent devastating events which is a lack of mental freedom. Yet in some ways I am endeavouring to seek the happier parts of life and allow myself moments of distraction from myself. This endeavour has been particularly assisted by a friend of mine who this week has reminded me that who I am does not disappear because of what life requires me to go through and whilst it changes me I remain someone with good qualities. I'm going to try and see myself through those eyes a bit more. Also I know my blog has been full of a lot of negativity these few weeks (life reflects art eh?) but I would like to share with you some happy thoughts too...

Hello my dear patient readers, I bet you wonder why I am even bothering to attempt to write a blog when I can't seem to keep up with a schedule of posting (or as it seems assessment writing at this late hour) but as a girl who loves writing, has a seemingly increasingly complex and beautiful life, and wants to share with you my observations its hard not to try. I know you all understand how busy life gets so lets assume you forgive me my time lapse.  This week's blog post is a hard one to write as I want to attempt to share with you my observations about loss . This is a phenomenon which has dictated my life for the past month or so (and if I want to be totally honest, my whole life as I feel constantly at risk of losing who I am) but was brought home to me in shocking-in-your-face-unavoidable-reality when my Grampie died of a heart attack nearly two weeks ago. I do not share this with you for pity, for views or something to say but as a forum to try and process what lo...

Hello dear readers, My deepest apologies for the extensive gap between my last blog post on Friday the 10 th October and the one I post today, I know it could have seemed worrying after the content of my last blog but I am still here*.   Continuing on in that vein of honesty however, I have found it exceptionally difficult to write and share parts of my life with you all when I have been having some personal issues (which I won’t be speaking about here as some aspects of my life are not really for the public critique as I hope you’ll all understand and even appreciate) that affected my mood and ability to really do anything. Plus I didn't want to misrepresent things to you dear reader that my life is all sunshine and rainbows and on the other side that it isn't all a dark well of despair (although I will admit I have been leaning to this side over the past several weeks). As often as I tend to operate in the extremes in my personality my life, as much as it can appear ...